emerson kate - 6 months!

My little Emerson is actually 8 months now!  So behind on blogging but I had this one typed up!

I cannot believe she is six months.  Crazy talk.  I know I say that every month, but man oh man it is surreal how quickly it goes by.  She is the best thing that has ever happened and I am LOVING this stage!  What a joy!  Matt and I survived our first trip out of the country without E.  Her Nonnie came up to watch her while Matt and I went to the Dominican for a work trip.  We facetimed which actually made it worse…I cried a couple of times…but all in all it was good for us to get away.  I still had to pump the entire trip which SUCKED!!  There isn’t a space to pump at the CLT airport so you have to use the family restroom…gaahhhrroosss.  I can top that one though…pumping in the Dominican airport…no AC pumping while in standing up in a stall sweating my face off.  Pumping blows.  You can’t sleep in if you are pumping since they wake you up…probably TMI but it is the truth.  You also can’t spend all day on the beach since you are tied to your pump.  I really don’t mind pumping during the week since it has become part of my life, but if I could do it over again I would probably not take a pump on vacation again.  Switch to formula.  I know that seems selfish but I don’t care.  I am, however, hardcore about trying to not not give E formula for some reason.  I know there is nothing wrong with it, I just feel good knowing that I am providing her the best nutrition and helps me feel connected in some strange way to her.  I really think I have some strange emotional attachment to my pump.  We are going to have to break up at some point....

Size:  Emerson is 15 lbs 7 oz.  She is getting huge!

Clothes/ Diapers:  She wears mostly 6 months with a few 9 month outfits.   Size 3 diapers.

Eating:  She eats 7 ounces at 6 am, 9 am, 12 pm, 3 pm, 6:15 – 6:45 pm.  We have also started food and she eats that around 5:30.  Food is so FUN!  E likes apples, carrots, sweet potatoes, bananas, and mangos.  She doesn’t like peas and avocados although I don’t think the avocado was pureed enough.  Mangos are her favorite so far followed by apples.  She has a sweet tooth like her Mama.  We are going to try to make her food.  It seems pretty easy and so much cheaper.  Plus I am in this clean eating phase (I just ate a snickers as I am typing this) so I have been trying to not eat crap and don’t want to give E crap.  If I can’t understand the ingredients then E isn’t eating it.  I mean have you seen baby canned meats?  Disgusting.  Even her Pediatrician said not to serve her that.

Sleeping:   Emerson sleeps like a champ.  I really can’t believe it.  She sleeps 12 hours and we put her down wide awake.  She will usually talk to herself for a little bit, sometimes not at all, and then out.

Likes:  Eating, us, Stella (super cute watching her get excited over Stella), Sophie the giraffe, jumper, baths, getting her diaper changed.

Dislikes:  She hates the vacuum which is odd because we vacuumed around her all the time when she was a newborn.  Her lip will quiver and she will frown and almost cry but holds it in.

Random:  Emerson has always been chatty but has REALLY picked it up a notch.  She sometimes will just holler – not cry – just holler for no reason.  Oh, and I am going to be a douche and brag a little, but one of the part time teachers at her daycare said that I was lucky because she has looks and personality.  She said that she is such a good baby and never cries. (I am thinking this lady hasn’t heard E holler yet…ha)

Me:  I haven’t put this on my last several posts because I lost the baby weight.  Hooray!  Then I went on vacation and gained some back.  Boo!  I still don’t have the body I had before her.  Losing the baby weight is one thing, but getting your old shape back in another.  What really bothered me was feeling weak.  You have ZERO core after pregnancy and feel squishy.  I remember trying to do a plank in a hot yoga class 6 weeks post-partum and couldn’t….literally couldn’t hold myself up.   It is very bizarre since your belly is so tight during pregnancy.  I worked out 5-6 times a week during my maternity when I was cleared (mostly for my sanity although when people assume I lost the baby weight breastfeeding I want to laugh and throw something) and then once I went back to work it was really hard to find the time.  She wasn’t sleeping well last fall so to get up for my morning runs was challenging, and I certainly didn’t want to run after work since that was my only time with her.  We snuggled so much after work.  Then it got cold and dark and the holidays came…I could go on and on….so I decided to start the DVD program Insanity which has been wonderful.  It is a 9 week program and I have 2 weeks left.  I still don’t have my old body back but I feel SO much better.  I am feeling strong again and am eating better now too.  I curse every morning when my alarm goes off at 4:50 but feel so great after it and have an obsession with Shaun T.   The other thing that has been challenging is figuring out how many calories to eat.  I don’t count them, but I am aware what I am putting into my body.  Since I am still nursing it has become a guessing game.  I also have to eat lots of carbs to keep my supply up so I try to eat mainly oatmeal (and candy...duh).  Sometimes when I eat my worst I actually lose weight and when I eat healthy I put weight on.  I have just stopped trying to figure that part out and just try be sensible MOST of the time.  It is girl scout cookie season after all.


emerson kate - 3 months!

I can’t describe how much I love my little Emerson.  Her smiles are simply amazing.  She can definitely tell who we are and that feels good.  She is starting to see us across the room now which is cool.  I couldn’t ask for a better baby and I get a huge smile whenever I think about the future with her.  Being a Mommy to her has been awesome and each week there is a little something different and new with her.  It is really exciting!

Size:  She didn’t have a 3 month check-up so I weighed her and she is around 11 - 12 lbs and 23” long.

Clothes/ Diapers:  She is now only in size one diapers, but I have a feeling she will be out of them shortly! My little weed!  She wears mostly 3-6 month clothing.  I feel like I blinked and she grew out of so many things (like socks) before actually getting a chance to use them.  I am having a really hard time finding shoes that will fit her - everything is too big!

Eating:  She still eats 7 bottles a day (every 3 hours) and eats around 4 ounces.  Still on the reflux medication although I feel like it has gotten so much better.  I am pumping 7x a day and am freezing a little bit.  I found out my ENTIRE stash of breast milk was trash.  Apparently I have this uncommon enzyme, lipase, that causes my milk to taste like soap after it is 4 days old.  Awesome.  It isn’t harmful, and I tried to get her to drink it once, but she made it clear that she hated it.  So that means that I have to scald my milk before I place it in the freezer….aka a whole extra step.  We bought a bottle warmer to make this easier and I seriously wish I had it from day one.  Bottle warmers are amazeballs.

Sleeping:  She still wakes up around 3 for a whole bottle.  I will cry with joy once she drops this feeding. The difficult part for me hasn’t been Emerson…it has been the complete lack of sleep.  I feel like a zombie.

Likes:  She now loves getting her diapers changed.  Big smiles every single diaper. She also loves her activity mat, swing, and paci.

Dislikes:  Hiccups & baths.  Well she likes the baths some days and other days hates them…she is moody. Jkjk

Random:  I am back at work.  I can’t believe my little party is over!  It is depressing and I have no idea really I am going to balance baby, pumping, working, hubby, running, yoga, and life.  I only cried 6 times the first day.  Better than I thought I would be.  And the pump room at work has really been my sanctuary. Sounds strange, but it is nice to have a break and a place that it is ok to cry in (which my coworker admitted she cries in there too so I am not the only psycho).  They didn’t ease me back into work either – they expected me to hit the ground running which has been difficult.

Me:  I am finally seeing a drop in the scale.  Halleluiah!  I still have 8 pounds to pre-baby weight but feel really good.  Also, my belly button looks normal which I am excited about.  Belly buttons weird me out and since mine became an outie during pregnancy I was nervous it was going to stay which would creep me out.

Get ready for an Emerson overload!!!!!!


emerson kate - 2 months! (way overdue!)

I am loving my maternity leave.  Watching my little girl grow before my very eyes has been amazing.  I love to watch her look around - taking in all the sights and sounds.  She is one alert little baby and I couldn't be happier!

Size:  She weighs 9 pounds 12 ounces and is 22" long at her 8 week appointment.  

Clothes/ Diapers:  She is almost completely out of newborn clothing and diapers.  I never thought I would have a baby in newborn clothes this long.  She has some cute summer outfits that just ended up being too big for her so I didn't get to use them which sucks.  I have been starting to get her some play clothes for school but I need to get so much more because I don't see me doing her laundry 2-3x a week once I am back at work.  Maybe I will surprise myself though!

Eating:  She eats about 7 bottles a day now around 3.25 ounces.  She is on medication for acid reflux and eating has been so much more enjoyable for her.  I am still pumping 7x a day with enough to freeze 12-16 ounces.  I can't believe women do this for a year!  Maybe it is easier the older she gets or when you are working.  I am very happy that I am able to giver her breast milk - but I will be glad to throw my pump off a cliff when it is all said and done!!  Sticking your boobs in a vacuum and being tied to a clock blows!   

Sleeping:  She wakes up around 2:20-3am every morning and goes back down till 7-7:30.  This has been a major improvement!  One night she didn't get up till 4am so she had a 6 hour stretch.  I realllllllly want baby girl to sleep through the night before I go back to work next month so fingers crossed!  I have even started the babywise method on her and it seems to work.  We don't let her "cry it out" yet (her Doctor said that it is time to start), but we do let her fuss a bit in her bed (still sleeping in the rock n' play).  We are moving her to the crib when she is 9 weeks.  It she is really fussy, I will just soothe her for a few and she falls right to sleep.  Most of the time she just has gas.  Her gas is so loud it even woke me up one night over the baby monitor!

Likes:  Laying on Matt or me and being held.  She still loves her swing!  And she loves being swaddled!

Dislikes:  Baths, hiccups, and clothes that go over her head.

Random:  I had my first night away from Emerson!  It was really hard.  I thought about her and Matt the whole time.  I went to Myrtle Beach for my little sister's bachelorette weekend.  Matt is so good with her so I didn't have to worry - just felt like a part of me was missing.  Emerson also spent an hour in the YMCA childcare this week so I could take a morning hot yoga class and it was WONDERFUL!  She slept the whole time.
Me:  The scale hasn't budged since week 2, but I finally fit into my fat jeans!  I have a major muffin top but am happy to not have an elastic waistband.  I feel like I am having some water retention issues because some days my rings fit and some days they don't.  Due to breastfeeding I can't diet so I am trying to eat better which is hard for me because I have always eaten whatever and just exercised.  I have always eaten somewhat healthy (as in I eat veggies and fruits but ALWAYS save room for dessert) and usually just eat smoothies when my clothes get snug but can't do that.  Or that is what I have read....that it will kill my supply before the 3 month mark.  Boooo.  I am running and doing hot yoga so I feel good and that is all that matters.