More Family Beach Pictures!

I finally uploaded our camera and have more pictures from our vacation back in May to share!  Lots of the same, but I can't help myself and put them all up.  Love this little beach bum so much!!

Patrick Brooks is here!

This post is a little long, but I write this blog for me to remember things by and this is something I don't want to forget!

Our little man came into this world a little firecracker.  Once again I had an early baby.  When I was 37 weeks and 5 days I woke up having some cramps so I assumed it was because I was hungry and went on my merry way and ate some breakfast.  Well that didn't stop them so then I thought I was having annoying braxton hicks and decided to take Emerson on a 3 mile hilly walk and then we went to the outlets for Father's Day shopping.

labor day walk
We got home around lunch and I realized that they weren't going away but wasn't concerned since I had a doctor's appointment at 3.  I went ahead and packed my hospital bag, took a shower, and cleaned as much as possible before that appointment.  I took my non stress test which confirmed that I was having minor contractions that were irregular and even more importantly, that baby was doing great!  My doctor also confirmed that I was 2 cm dilated and 80% effaced but told me that he thought this baby could come that weekend or it could be a few more weeks.  I felt a little defeated because I asked about my contractions and he told me that I shouldn't be able to talk through them and they needed to be 5 minutes apart for an hour.  He said what I was having weren't strong enough.  I left there feeling sort of down about everything because they were uncomfortable.  Looking back I should have listened to my body because I knew something wasn't right, but I told myself I was being weak and to pull it together.  I went home and actually cried to Matt because I didn't feel good and he drew me bath which really did help with the pain.  During this bath I ate part of a milkshake that was in the freezer...go figure...my last meal.  All I kept thinking is that I can't be uncomfortable like this for weeks...kill me know...I would rather of a c-section then.  Matt was great and completely took care of Emerson and even put her to bed which is what I do every night.  I laid in bed trying to take a nap until about 8:30 when Matt suggested we go hang out in the basement because our AC was out upstairs.  At this point I really didn't feel good but my contractions were still irregular.  I asked Matt to time them and he forgot, poured himself a cocktail instead.  I told him if this was our first baby we would be at the hospital right now.  This statement surprised him because he honestly thought I couldn't handle pain and was being dramatic.  Well I went to the bathroom at 9 and saw some blood and that did it for me, I called the doctor and decided it was go time.  The call to let them know you are coming was 30 minutes!!!  Are you kidding me?!!  I couldn't breath through my contractions at this point.  They were coming on strong and fast.  This is when Matt decided he needed to go pack and call his Mom and our friend Casey to come watch Emerson.  We left the house at 9:30 and I had two painful contractions in the car and then it happened...my water broke at 9:43.  Matt turned on the hazards, ran red lights, drove 70 the rest of the way to get there.  I thought I was dying.  I was making these strange moaning noises that Matt describes as a human, cat and a werewolf combined.  We flew into a handicap parking spot and Matt immediately grabbed a wheelchair which I declined because the ramp would have taken too long to go up.  He ran inside to the front desk while I had a contraction while walking in and fell to the ground.  I literally crawled into the hospital.  Apparently there was a cute and put together couple that was checking in who were clearly coming to be induced and Matt said she saw me and turned white.  I know I looked like something out of a scary moving just screaming while crawling.  Some lady got me a wheelchair and rushed me to the elevator.  I couldn't sit...I had to sit to the side...he was coming.  Once we got to the maternity floor I kept saying I had to GO and they rushed me into a room and said that I could do it on the table.  Ha.  I was feeling the baby coming and didn't have to GO but didn't know that at the time.  There were about 8 nurses in our room...it was chaos.  They were all turning on equipment and asking me questions...seriously nuts.  I took off my clothes and asked how dilated I was and one nurse said that I was all the way so I asked if I could have an epidural and I saw the faces of two of the nurses and they said no.  This caused me to scream out the F bomb.  I think this is when I saw my doctor enter the room and I pushed 3 times and he was out.  There was a rush to get him out because his heart rate was low, but I didn't hear that.  I just wanted him OUT.  After his head was out he literally flew out of my body.  I saw my doctor actually catch him.  He was immediately taken to the nurses in the room and checked out before I could hold him.  Holding him right after birth was amazing.  I didn't get that last time.  Well since this birth happened so fast, I tore and needed stitches.  My doctor offered an array of options but since I didn't have pain medicine he opted for me to get a spinal tap and go to an OR for stitches.  THAT was weird.  I don't even want to think about that again.

9:59 pm ~ 7 lbs 5 oz ~ 20.5"

his little hands are purple! 

This was the craziest experience of my life and not at all what I thought this birth would be like.  I really felt empowered as cliche as that sounds and see why women don't get an epidural.  With that said, I will gladly be drugged up for baby 3 because the moment I feel a single contraction my happy self will hang out at the hospital.  This cannot happen again.  I need an easy birth.

I also can't explain how amazing it was to hold a newborn again and to immediately fall in love with him.  I honestly didn't know how you could love someone as much as you love your first born, but it just happens naturally.  I couldn't wipe the smile off my face nor could I fall asleep.  It was partly from the adrenaline and partly because I felt SO lucky.  Here I was, the mother of another healthy baby who was absolutely perfect.  You fill your head with such worry during your pregnancy and it is such a relief when you get to hold your child and have those fears just wash away.  Motherhood is such an incredible gift and we are just so in love with Brooks!!


bump #2 - 34, 35 & 36 weeks!

Baby is here!  I already had this post typed out so here it is!

Life has been super busy lately.  Busy because I am making it busy.  I have this need to have as much done as possible, as far as our house being decorated, before he comes.  I am really trying to have the master bedroom, Emerson's room, and the nursery complete (with the exception of wall decor) as quickly as possible.  While we were on vacation we purchased a new king bed and I have been shopping like a crazy person getting the mattress and bedding options. 

Same for Emerson's room - I have tried out 2 different bedding options and have another on the way to the house.  Little girls rooms are hard.  I am not a girly girl so I have a hard time picking things out for her in her room.  Like I like Pottery Barn Kids in the store, but when I get it home I always second guess the girls stuff.  Boys decor is soooo much easier I think.  The nursery is almost done minus a few walls that need something and a pillow for the chair.  We also ordered furniture for our deck, 3 area rugs, and fabric for drapes in our room.  After all this I won't be buying anything until 2016.  Since we are having a photographer come to our house for pictures, I want our msater bedroom to look somewhat decent and not like we just moved in.  All of this coupled with buying things for baby boy while having fun each day with Emerson has kept me busy.  Like I said though, busy is a choice.

I am actually 36 weeks now (crazy!) but I still want to keep up with this blog even if it is slack.  When I was 34 weeks we went to the beach for my SIL's graduation.  It was SO much fun.  Matt rented a place in Wild Dunes for a few days and it was so perfect.  He rented a condo so Emerson could have her own room which was clutch.  I had no desire to go to bed at 7pm when she does or be silent while she was napping.  It was my first time at Wild Dunes and I really liked it.  Matt goes each year with work so he knew the lay of the land.  Going to the beach with a tot is so different but I wouldn't change it.  One night, for example, it was easier just to pick up subs from the deli in the hotel than it was to go out to eat.  Just a different kind of vacation, but I had a blast!  Love my little family!  After a few days we stayed on Sullivans Island with Matt's family and that was a lot of fun as well.  Everyone helps with Emerson so it is a nice break.  She was such a trooper through graduation and restaurant wait times and I loved seeing his family interact with her.  I can tell she loves them so much and had a great time with them.  Below are some iPhone pics!

Ok...so moving on to the bump update....

34 weeks 5 days

Total weight gain:  +23-24 pounds.  I do not care about this number and it changes back and forth everyday.  I think I will stay around 30 pounds when it is all said and done and I am happy about that.  At my last doctor visit I was up +21 which if I am cheating I use this number in my head instead of the +24...haha.
Maternity clothes:  Clothes are uncomfortable.  I could just stay in Matt's shirts but I know that isn't appropriate outside of the house.  I do prefer my clothes to be more fitted this pregnancy just so I look less sloth like.
Sleep:  Everyday is different.  Some nights I sleep like a baby and others I have super bad insomnia for hours and end up googling my face off.  On days that I have insomnia I tend to nap when she naps.  I felt guilty at first but know the end and need to soak up as much sleep as possible before he comes.
Miss anything:  Normal clothes.  I can't wait to go shopping.  I have bought a few things I can't try on just because not shopping for 10 months is super boring and I only bought a few pairs of maternity jeans from Old Navy this go around.  I also can't wait to be in shape again.  I do not like getting out of breath by taking stairs and can't wait to go on a good run again.
Movement:  It has gone down a little bit, but he still move so much more than Emerson.  My doctor told me to drink something sweet and sit for two hours and count my kicks.  Who has time for that?  This has been my excuse for getting ice cream at night lately.  I am not worried about his movements right now.  It is frequent enough at this point.
Food cravings:  ice cream all day everyday.
Anything making you queasy or sick?  I just avoid the same things every week - red sauce anything including ketchup now, onions, peppers and chocolate candy.
Symptoms:  Being large
Happy or moody:  Both.  I get really moody when I don't get a lot of sleep plus I am struggling to make decorating decisions on my own house.  Then I have really happy times like when we were at the beach and I had my awesome sprinkle this past weekend (next blog post).  I am also emotional.  I cry at everything including seeing roadkill.  It is unreal.
Looking forward to:  My next doctor's appointment!  I love hearing that everything is on track and ok, plus the sound of the heart beat never gets old.
Exercise:  34 weeks - T25 2 times, 20 min on a bike, and two 3 mile walks on vacation.  35 weeks - T25 4 times and one 3 mile walk.  36 weeks - T25 4 times and two long walks.